I had no idea that the post was read by anyone at the church office until after the 8:30 service when someone that is regularly in close contact with the Pastor told me that it was circulating around. He looked at me and said something to the effect of “That was pretty brave sitting next to Chunks after what you put on your blog.” I didn’t even know that this person knew I had a blog. I can only assume that he didn’t and heard about it from someone else. But then to find out that Chunks Corbett, the Executive Pastor at Elevation Church unknowingly sat right next to me Sunday and had possibly read my blog. That was an interesting thought.
We were seated near the back of the middle section where four empty seats were. At first we thought there were only three seats because the gentleman beside us was a big dude and we weren’t sure which seat he was sitting in because he was standing during worship and had drifted over to the seat beside him. So after worship we sit down with an empty seat on either side of us. I thought to myself “This could be interesting considering my recent post.” I figured we would be asked to scoot over (which of course we would), but it never happened.
A few minutes into the worship I get a tap on the shoulder and someone asks “Is this seat saved for anyone?” I look up and see Chunks standing there. I smile and say “For you.” So he takes his seat beside me not knowing who I am. He was inches away from the writer of this controversial blog post and could have said something. Even if he did know, Chunks Corbett doesn’t strike me as the type of person to tackle that subject right then and there. I of course was also unknowingly sitting next to someone who possibly read the post.
I actually thought about introducing myself because our wives know each other through the Prayer Team and other stuff. But that seemed kind of odd. There really wasn’t anything for us to talk about and to introduce myself as “the husband of someone who knows your wife” seemed awkward. Plus it was during church, which is a bad time for introductions anyways. I did happen to catch one of Chunks’ pop-flies in softball last summer at the one game he played in, but I didn’t think that was worth breaking the ice for. Wouldn’t that have made for an interesting situation!
So what did those at the church office think? I will probably never hear from any of them. They might feel that I wrote it for attention and that they didn’t want to dignify it with a response. Or they could have thought it was funny but didn’t want to encourage my brand of humor. Or they could have thought I was just complaining and didn’t want to bother with one more complaint. Or they could have been totally offended and wouldn’t mind if I didn’t attend Elevation. I don’t know what they are thinking because no one bothered to comment other than one volunteer. I used to volunteer doing setup, but that didn’t last very long. I could never be an usher; I just couldn’t be that robotic. I don’t think I could be a greeter because I’ve been told I don’t look people in the eyes when I talk and the greeters are so nice and inviting that I don’t think I’d fit in. I’m sure there is something I could do to help, but I’m content to just be for now.
Hopefully I won’t get black-listed for this. At one point I think that I was being considered by someone at church to help do some graphic work for EKidz. I highly doubt I’ll get the chance to do that now. I probably wouldn’t be trusted because I’m probably viewed as a deviant. I realize these are a lot of assumptions of how other people feel, but until I get feedback from anyone, what should I think?
The silence says enough. It’s kind of like when someone says something in a group that is incredibly awkward or outright ludicrous, but no one speaks up. They just kind of stand there with this dumbfound expression of disbelief thinking “Did they really just say that?”
Ask anyone that knows me and they’ll tell you, much to their chagrin, that I’m usually not afraid to speak my mind. I can have discernment when I feel it is necessary. Like when I was first bothered by the ushers, I could have ripped ‘em a new one with a slanderous blog, but I didn’t. I waited until I could just laugh at the whole situation and see how silly getting upset really was and then blog about it. Last night my small group jokingly prayed for me to have more discernment when blogging.
